Feb 14 2010 A new era of time

Well, it has been awhile and alot has gone on in this family of mine. We now have a almost 7 month old grandson. He may have been concieved out of violence but he was born into love by a family that is most grateful for him and his mother's safe return home. That is a pain I would never want anyone to go through.

Glen and I have been married now for 26 yrs this month. I still feel in awe that we have not killed each other during this time. I know that I have been very trying. I still feel as though God has a purpose for us to be together and have this family. I wish I knew what I keep looking for the reason daily.

One thing I have learned over the years is that God has a time table and we don't always understand that table and it is rarely insynic with ours. I realize that we all must go through trials and they aren't alwasy easy but at times I get so tired and crave the peace of going home and knowing all will be well and that nothing can harm me again. Selfish it is of me to feel this way but the truth nonethe less.

I have been told countless times how blessed I am for the husband and family that I have and yet I feel like such a failure in tending to my family. A woman I know is trying to become more like the Proverbs Woman that God has blueprinted out for us to be. She wrote a list of qualities that make up the proverb woman. To a small degree we have a very small amount of those qualities in us and complete them but not enough to make us the woman God wants us to be.

I have read for years what makes a good wife and try to be that. I fail at it greatly, the world gets in my way and I lose all my confidences. I ask God for opening of my eyes to see my faith more clearly and I just want to cry with what I see. I don't have enough faith, although God says to have the faith of a mustard seed will carry you through, I beleive mine is so much less. I need to improve in my studies again and try harder to improve all that is in my life and that of my family. I need to stop being so selfish and give more of my time and do more.

My house needs to be in order and it isn't so I am planning some vacation time from my job just so I can put my house in order and get the house clean. I am hoping that it will stay that way. I am also working on cleanin up the yard and putting in a garden so to help manage our food bill and provide healthier meals for us to eat. These things are physical but will lead towards the spiritual and mental attitudes that need changing as well.

The proverbs woman wakes early to talk with God...I need to listen more than talk to him in the mornings. I am up early and at times get several things done before getting ready for work. I stay tired because I do not take the rest that God requires of us. I miss church and need to start back again. But the word fear is so strong here. Fear that I will be judge unworthy to be in the same church again. I remember what it feels like to be told you are not welcome to join us even though it was my family along with others who helped build the church up from nothing and built a building and all that goes with it. I remember being baptized and now after the greed of the world stepped in the building is gone and the congration has moved to several diffrent churchs now and Walmart has taken over the lands that once were holy grounds. I cry because I can not seem to find the right home church again with the love that is suppose to be there.  I need my time allow with God to help me but I also need the fellowship of a church that isn't judging or of this world and makes you feel unworthy.

I miss my walks from my youth when I would talk and listen to God each night. I would walk for hours in the neighborhood of my youth. Now to walk at night in any nieghborhood is just to dangerous. I miss my quiet time. I had no distraction during those walks and they would help me out so much. I need that again in my life.

I am not sure what is in store for me in the future. I can only pray for guidance and love to see me through. lets all pray for peace and understanding. I know I need it!

vacation in Alabama March 2009

Here are some photos of our trip to Aunt Linda and Uncle Jim's place in Lillian, AL. We also celebrated Glen's 50th birthday while we were there since that was the day we left for home. Greg, Mae and Neil and Diane all came in from Arizona and Brandy and Lacy with thier kids came in from North Carolina for the weekend only.

We all had so much fun. Playing games and telling stories. The first time we have all gotton together ever! I have been in the family for 25 years. These are Aunt Linda's only living nephews and family on her side and my late mother in laws. These boys could pass for triplets instead of two brothers and a cousin.

Well, my next blog should be in July after our first grandson is born so be prepared for that...

catch up

Well, we have found out the Sierra is having a baby boy in July. She thinks she is naming him Lance. Of the other names that have come up are Wyatt, Gage, Hayden, Aiden and a few others. Once she gets her name picked out Nana is gonna have a quilt made with his name on it. It will already have horses on it.
Once I can get the bedroom cleaned out we are gonna redo the room for Sierra and the baby. Alot of work to do that is for sure.

We get to go on vacation this month. We will be in Gulf Shores, AL between the 20 and 27. Celebrating Glen's 50th Birthday with his side of the family. His brother and cousin are coming in from Az.. and of Aunt Linda will have all three of her nephews together since my mother in law passed away 9 years ago. Good times now. We are planning on crusing the intercoastal waterway if the weather is nice. So get ready for some pictures.

We have 23 payments left on the house so we will start gathering up the stuff we need to do some repairs and major remodel. We will need to have the plumbing redone and upgraded so I am planning on ripping out the bathroom and putting in a tankless hot water heater and new everything. Plus the kitchen needs upgrading much to Glen's dismay. We will also be putting in a fireplace in the living room. Alot of work. We will hire out the plumbing but the rest we can do it will just take awhile.

That is about all until vacation....later

Pile of leaves and 3 little boys

Well, when you have a leaf blower and 3 little boys what starts as a way to get the leaves gathered up in a pile to get rid of causes a stir of excitement. Leaf war and lets bury Aunt Moriah in the pile. It was so funny watching this boys play. Alexander is the oldest with his brother Nicholas and a distance cousin of theirs Lil William. What a hoot it was to play and watch them.

The weather was so nice saturday that we had a fish fry outback and Glen cut down a tree that was growing next to the house and I was working on the leaves until it became a play ground of fun instead of work.

We had a house full over here so no work got finished and now I must finish laundry and the rest of the house work.

Sierra goes to the doctor tomorrow and gets all checked out. We went out looking at baby things to find what she likes and all. This will be one spoiled kid before it is over with. Moriah and Chad have changed their wedding date from November 27, 2009 to May 21, 2010. Chad's new job got delayed for 6 months so they want to wait on the wedding as well. Plus like Moriah said she can have a spring wedding outside like she really wants with spring colors. Her favorite is purple and blue with green. So I am okay with this because I really wasn't looking forward to camo type colors for the fall.

Glen and I both have just been working. Right now Glen is just on call since things have slowed down at bit in the oil field. However it will pick up and he will be swamped like before. Things are busy for me with resets and revisions at work. I have to double check to make sure all is okay and set right after the asst. mgrs do all the major work. Then the counting begins on each dept as it is finished. So my work is quite busy for a bit.

We have 25 more payments on the house then we will debt free on the house except for taxes and insurance. Of course we will be doing some work on the house and improving things for our older years. yea right our older years are here. We are gonna be outright grandparents this summer.

We are also preparing for our vacation come March to Gulf Shores, AL. I can't wait. Glen will turn 50 while we are there with his brother, cousin and Aunt. We are planning on a big todo for him. I plan on lots of pictures. I am getting us a movie camera next month for our 25th annersary. So be prepared... Well that is all the news for now later

This is Moriah Darlene Camron and Chad Wesley Howard. They are to be married November 27, 2009.

Right now they are living here but are looking for a new place in Sulphur Springs, TX. Chad starts his new job next month there. He is a personal trainer for heavy weights body builders who compete.

Moriah is gonna try and transfer to the Walgreens up there if she can. If not she may not work for bit but start her college classes up there. She still wants to take financal classes and business classes. She would be good at it that is for sure.

Well, I have you caught up on the girls. Glen and I are the same as always work work work. Although Glen will be in south Texas next weekend for a special doe hunt on a private ranch with some friends. This is a special invite. I am gonna make sure he takes pictures while he is there. Me I will be at home cleaning house as always. My vacation comes when March gets here. We are going to Gulf Shores , AL for a week...I can't wait.....

new year

Okay here is Sierra in her first mommy and me outfit. She got this for Christmas. We went New Years day and looked at baby things. Got her a diaper bag she wanted. It was clearance and it is camo, go figure.
If you are wondering about this pregancy then I guess I need to explain if you didn't know.
Last year for 6 months Sierra was sorta mia. She got mad at me and her Dad for sticking to our guns on being responsible and took off. Well, what we didn't know was the guy she was with was a real loser. Within a week she wanted to come back home and well, short version he wouldn't let her. He abused her and got her to steal some cd's in Norman, OK and got caught. In reality that was a good thing because it let us know where she was and what was happening to her. 3 days later we got her from him and he is still in jail and will be for a long while. So she is entering her 3month and I get to become a grandma this summer.
On Jan 15 she has to show up for court to find out what will happen about the stealing. I am praying that she only has to pay out a fine. This was a first offense for her, I am just sad because this will follow her for the rest of her life.

She is planning going back to college this fall. Nursing if she can. She will live with us for atleast the next 2 years while she is in school. I get tons of babysitting in the mean time but that is okay I have an Aunt and Mom that will take over from time to time. We are working out of the details to make things work out best. Sierra will have alot of responiblity now.

our first blog

Okay, here is Glen and Moriah.

We are preparing for a busy new Year.

Moriah is getting married later in the year. Glen turns 50 in March and of course we will be celebrating 25 yrs of marriage in Feburary.

Sierra will be giving us our first grandchild come July. Then all the firsts of a first grandchild to look forward too.

New years will be a challenge but full of wonder and GOD's grace in our lives. I will be trying to keep things going towards the good of us all. Hopefully we will have a great time in the months ahead. Enjoy this tidbit of family life...